May 19, 2016
I am more and more convinced that the quality of our lives are not so much dependent on what we can’t change but what we can. One of the biggest of those things that can be changed is our perspective. Perhaps perspective on how we see our circumstances, but I want to focus on the perspective we place on ourselves.
Years ago I used to see myself differently than I do now. I saw myself as nothing more than a helpless victim under attack by the darkness ensuing around me with nothing more than the hope that I’d be saved from my circumstances, that they’d magically disappear somehow. “There’s nothing I can do. Nothing I can change. I can’t do anything to change this. Im a failure. My life is a failure. I’m nothing.” That was the essence of my thoughts about myself.
I was so wrong. I can’t cure my depression. I can’t instantly make the things that make it worse go away either, but I can be brave. I can be kinder to myself and not put myself down. I can hold tight to hope for better days and move forward in faith towards that hopeful day. I can keep moving forward. I don’t have to stay stagnant. I can choose to look for the good and distract myself from the sad by focusing my energy elsewhere, on helping others. I can’t make the depression go away but I can do everything to manage it medically and also strengthen myself spiritually.
I can’t cure the neurological disease either. No cure exists yet. I can manage it and I can try to reduce things that trigger the attack of symptoms. Most importantly I can be brave. I choose to see myself for what I really am. I’m a survivor. I’m a fighter. I am resilient. I am strong. I am brave. I am a dreamer. I am a believer. I believe in fighting a good fight and enduring it well. I believe in perseverance. I choose hope and happiness and optimism and faith. I’m not giving up on my life or my future or the lifelong dreams I’ve had since childhood. I’m going to live my life to the fullest. I’m going to reclaim it and own it and make it mine again. Even if I’m a prisoner of my adversity for the rest of my life. I will be happy despite my adversity. I choose happiness.
Notes / My Thoughts:
Our Family’s Current Adventures
Brave
Braver Still
–The Greatest Adventure Ever Known–
Life, adversity,
–My New Life–
