I’ve been having a difficult time keeping up with my goal of writing here in this journal every day, so I’m going to try to write once a week for a while and see if I can keep up with that goal.
I have been so busy lately. All sorts of busy. Good busy. Stressful busy. Productive busy. Mismanaged-time busy. Busy busy…
I feel like I can barely keep my thoughts organized. I’ve been struggling extra hard with my ADHD this year. I feel so forgetful, and so impeded but it.
Today’s Difficult things of the day (December 17, 2023)
I struggled to stay focused on almost everything today. Being easily distractible might be the most well known and defining characteristic of ADHD, but for those who have ADHD, we know how disabling and stressful it can feel at times.
Today’s Good things of the day (December 17, 2023)
Another Day of Life and Breath
I woke up. No day is ever guaranteed, and I very frequently feel blessed that I a wake up to find that I am here another day. I have made it my objective that when I say my morning personal prayers each morning at my bedside, that I always thank my Heavenly Father for another day of life and breath, for that of another day with my family, and for another day to get up, try again, and keep moving forward.
Food on the table and A Full Belly
I am thankful that today, we had three full meals on the table. We have three full meals every day, but I feel that it is just so important to never take even the most basic of things for granted, because at any moment life can change.
Safety and health
Temporal preparedness has been on my mind for many years, but more and more especially the last few years. Specifically, when it comes to the uncertain times that we live in today, but most especially the possibility of natural disasters, and my personal heightened awareness of the very real need to always maintain a basic level of preparedness in case a natural disaster were ever to take my family and me by surprise.
We experienced a 5.7 magnitude earthquake a few years ago here in Utah, and it was a scary reminder that not only are we all not nearly as “in control” of things in life as we would often like to think that we are, but that building up and strengthening temporal and spiritual preparedness are both so important on an everyday basis because we ultimately do not know when we will need to lean on those foundations for either physical or spiritual (or both) survival…
Shelter overhead
Having personally experienced homelessness for a short time twice before I had turned 17 years old, I am ever grateful for having a roof over the heads of me and my family. I have learned to never take even the smallest of things for granted.
the Sabbath Day
Today was Sunday, the Sabbath day. We didn’t make it to church today, and we’ve missed the last few weeks of church, also, as we’ve all taken turns over the last few weeks catching and getting over colds and flu, but I still tried to remember, and I try to each and every Sunday, that today was the Sabbath day, and to try to treat it as such. I find it difficult to stay focused on spiritually nurturing activities on Sundays, as my ADHD is something that I have to work to overcome over and over again with each new day, and Sunday is no exception to that necessary effort, but I still try. I fail a lot, but I keep trying.
The Good Things of this Past Week (December 10-17, 2023)
Another week of homeschooling, and though it wasn’t always easy, we have made it through another week. I love homeschooling, and I have dreamed of homeschooling my own kids since before I ever had kids, but just because I am fulfilling one of my dreams, it doesn’t mean that the thing I have dreamed of doing for so long is exempt of being hard or stressful at times. I don’t believe that that’s how dreams always work. Many peoples’ dreams of every different kind are often achieved by first doing the difficult work that is required to either obtain or achieve the desired results. For me, homeschooling, itself, isn’t the end goal of homeschooling my kids. My goals for wanting to homeschool my kids are the good things that I hope will one day be the result of having homeschooled my kids.
Also, other good things happened but I cannot remember right now because it’s late, I’m tired, and my brain feels kind of like “mush” right now…
Last But Not Least
I have much to be grateful for on a daily basis if I can just tune in enough to the good around me in order to be able to notice it and then recognize it for what it is. I’m hoping that continuing to keep this journal with help with that.
G’night, y’all.
-Stacy
